Tuesday, January 7, 2014
So it begins, this adventure to Australia. I have a range of emotions running through me right now. Excitement, expectation, sadness, fear, anxiety, and complete thrill. I have known this moment was coming. Now it's here and it's overheming and insane all at once.
There has been part of me through this whole process that has felt like giving up more than once; just calling it quits before we became too committed. It would be easier to have stayed with what I know. A job, a home, family, my own little family of my wife and two dogs, amazing friends, a great church family. It would make sense to stay where you know people and know the routine of life. I felt comfortable in the "known" aspect of my life. So stay. Call the move off. Be content with the known and do not pursue the unknown. It just made sense.
My life has never been about making sense though. It's in the chaos of it all that I heard God calling me to live for Him. It was in the most self-absorbed moments of my life that God challenged me to live differently. It never has made sense. God, loving someone who only lived for himself. God loving me, who was only interested in the idea of happiness. That, in and of itself, does not make sense. It only seems right then to live out my life in a way that doesn't always make sense.
I honestly don't know how this chapter of life will end. But I know this is the beginning of something amazing. My prayer is for my faith to become stronger, my love to be more generous, my trust to be more apparent, and my calling to be more clear.
2014 here's to a crazy ride! Live Loved. Live Loud. Live Forgiven.
"Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters, wherever You would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, and my faith will me made stronger in the presence of my Savior."